It's been something I have been thinking of for a while…..a long while….
And now that I am no longer working, it is something that I could actually do.
But the 24 million dollar question is…….
Can I actually do it?
I am educated myself. I have a law degree and I also studied for my legal practice certificate. So, putting it bluntly, I am not stupid.
But can I actually teach Munchkin? Am I cut out to be a teacher? Do I have the patience for it?
I am ashamed to admit I do have a short fuse, especially when I am tired, which I am practically all the time these days as Bee STILL isn't sleeping through. So I look forward to the time Munchkin is at school and Bee is asleep to get some peace in the house. So can I actually cope with having them both with me all the time? (Does that make me sound selfish?)
And what are my reasons for wanting to homeschool?
Basically, I am scared.
I am scared of the change I am seeing in her, and its not good.
But then when you come across parents effing this and effing that in normal conversation and also kids verbally abusing their parents then what can I expect from her?
When you see girls all sexualised wearing short skirts at 7 years old, what can I expect?
When kids think its OK to lie to their parents and think nothing of saying words like 'butt' etc then what can I expect?
But then I also start to wonder am I just being an overprotective mother?
I went to school. It never turned me into an evil child. I knew what my parents expected and as a Muslim I knew I shouldn't be playing things like kiss chase in school.
But then I think, things have changed since I was in school.
See how I am going round in circles?
What happens if I have another child? I doubt I would have the patience to homeschool, look after a toddler and baby.
What if I don't teach her well enough and she ends up failing in life?
So many 'what if's?
What do I do?