For most of my journey as a muslimah who wears hijab, I have been either a student or a stay-home mum. Even when I worked from home, running a playgroup, and offering tuition to students, hijab was never an issue. It was something I believed in, something that was a part of me. Even though I lived in an area where Muslims are a minority, and hijabi’s are even moreso, my hijab was not something I rendered much thought to, it was simply a natural extension of who I was.
Then when I decided to return to formal employment, for the first time, I found myself being conscious of it. From the starting point, at the interview, I found myself being insecure, wondering if I would be turned down for the position simply because of the manner in which I dressed. This opened up new questions, what if the interviewer was a male, what if he extended his hand to shake mine, how would I avert this, and do it in a manner that is not perceived as rude?
Alhamdulillah, the interviewers were both female, and I did get the job. This then led to a whole new range of questions, not least of which was once again the interaction with male colleagues. I quickly found a way around the handshake, by entering a room with a friendly smile, and greeting them from a few meters away, and ensuring that my hands were always occupied, holding files or a cup of coffee, and gesturing that they have a seat. They quickly realised what was appropriate for me, and because it’s a very formal environment, it was easily accepted for what it was.
I did however find that often times, my hijab whilst not a limiting factor to me, did make others perceive my abilities in a less than favourable manner. I had to work harder, I had to smile more, I had to go the extra mile every day, just in order to prove not my excellence, but simply my competence. I of course got a lot of questions, and most of these were unfortunately the based on negative stereotyping in the media. Initially I was a little annoyed by these misconceptions, but then took the opportunity to answer questions in a manner that was honest, and to explain that this was not forced upon me. This was my choice. No it does not mean I’m uneducated. No, it does not mean I’m not ‘liberated’ When answering questions about hijab; I naturally answered questions about other aspects of faith too. And slowly I found myself chipping away at the preconceived stereotyping that had taken place because of a ‘piece of cloth on my head’ I found that my own confidence was starting to return, and I found myself focussing less on other people’s perception of me, and more on my work. When I made this breakthrough for myself, my work improved too!
Of course there are many other hurdles facing muslimahs in the formal work environment, not least of which is the limited availability of modest formal workwear. However with some clever thinking, and a bit of mixing and matching, I was able to pair formal work dresses that were knee-long, with pants. Longer dresses that were sleeveless with a blazer. When it came to the actual hijabs, I chose to go with the simpler designs, and no embellishments.
Overall I found that by not compromising who I was in terms of dressing, and in maintaining a consistent appearance in terms of modesty, in remaining steadfast to my commitment of hijab, there were certain hurdles placed in my path. Alhamdulillah with faith and having a strong belief I have managed to jump over these hurdles. Of course while there are still many other factors to contend with, my dressing is not one of them. Where I previously projected uncertainty and insecurity about wearing a hijab, I am now confident with my decision, and have proven that far from it being a limiting factor, it is in fact the opposite. The only criterion I am judged on now, in the workplace, is my competence, and ability to perform task required of me. A huge part of this had to do with my own mindset, with re-aligning my own thought patterns, and re establishing my niyaah, re-affirming that I was choosing to wear hijab solely because of Allah’s command.
Assalamu aleikum sister. I wore hijab close to five years at corporate America alhamdullilah so I can relate to this. Your competency is always on the line and you feel like you have to work harder than anyone else to be taken seriously. Unfortunately, with the Paris events, my zone of comfort got breached so I didn’t feel very comfortable even though my colleagues were nice. I like not to dismiss my gut feelings. I have thoughts of re-entering the workplace but for an accounting position from hom and wondered if my hijab was going to be a problem. Masha’Allah, you give me hope. Great inspiring post! Houb salam!
Inspiring post masha’Allah.
What an inspiring post. I guess most of us go through the hijab insecurities at some point or another when living in a non-Muslim country. I started wearing hijab in Ramadhaan after I’d been working at my company for a few months and it was an easy transition Alhamdulillah. But when I meet new people, I still hope that they won’t be judging me on my hijab but rather on my competencies.
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So relatable. I am a ‘snob’ because i always stare at the floor as i walk. I dont smile at men to say hi. *sheesh*
I used to be like this at the beginning, open up and try to answer questions. However, as the time goes, the questions became to intrusive, even on my personal life and personal decisions based on my religion of which they always put a not necessarily verbal expression of disapproval. In the end I decided to make some boundaries and not talk about personal stuff anymore in the terms of friends, but just work stuff in the term of colleagues. At some point it got really sour, but luckily there were others who were level headed too. And now it’s a bit better, but I don’t let anyone come too close, unless they are really nice and have manners.
I can so relate to your struggles and inner *voices*… but with steadfastness, renewing intention and having a positive mind-set… the journey gets easier.
Indeed, we are living in interesting times.
Mashaa allaah, inspiring. So happy to read there are sisters who are so strong, and keep steadfast upon the deen. May allaah reward them.
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i haven’t experienced being belittled in the workplace because of my hijab. prolly coz i work in a muslim community. but, heads up to you for being so brave and courageous.
JazakAllah Fozia And Ayesha,
This is such an Inspiratioal post.
May Almighty keep us steadfast like you.
I’m so happy that you got through those hurdles. When I’m in a predominately non-Muslim area, I get really concious of my niqab but I’ve realised that most people will be comfortable with it, so long as you are. As long as you carry being confident, not magnifying your clothing differences and just carry on as a normal person – most people don’t mind Alhumdulilah.
Dengan menyebut nama Allah yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyanyang 🙂
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