Yesterday marked one year that I started to wear hijab. I wrote about whether I was oppressed when I first started wearing it.
I have graduated from taking half an hour to put it on with loads of pins that kept falling off, to one safety pin, one pin and taking literally a minute to get it on and walk out the door.
And I don’t lose my pins anymore!
I will be honest and admit it hasn’t always been easy. A few times I have been close to taking it off again when my faith has weakened and I have felt at an all time low and started thinking ‘just what is the point?’ But I am glad that I did not take it off as I have now reached the stage where I would feel uncomfortable going out without it on.
I have noticed difference in attitudes but they generally are rare. For example people thinking I can’t speak English, when in fact I am probably more educated then them. People not stopping at zebra crossings or not giving me way when I am in the car. But usually this negativity I have experienced has been few and far between.
And any negativity I experience makes me all the more determined to keep on wearing it.
When I first stared wearing my hijab I was talking about dying my hair. A friend asked me what is the point in doing that if noone is going to see it.
And that made me think.
Is society such that everything we do is for the benefit of others? Dying and styling your hair is only so you can look attractive to others? If you cover your hair you may as well keep your hair a mess seems to be the attitude of some?
What’s the point?
I dye/cut my hair for myself. For me to feel good about myself. (Oh and for the hubby if he ever notices). Just because I am covered for modesty sake doesn’t mean I look like a mess underneath or I am going to let myself go. I am still a woman that wants to look good. To have nice styled hair.
The difference is I am doing it for myself and not everyone else.